Rant and rave all you want. No one will hear you.

You think you're pretty cool that you've captured my heart huh? I'm surprised you've let it go on this long. You fade in and out way to much for me to believe a single word you say. Seriously.....I wish I had the courage to just tell you to go away. Maybe a shooting star to wish it to. I'm just a silly girl. You're using me as a reality placeholder. When things go wrong in freezing cold, what not land. I'm the one you fall back on. Why? because you know Ill be here. I'm not strong enough to walk away. Do I even want to?

Thats the problem I DONT WANT TO!!! You make me laugh. You make me happy. You make me smile. You make me so many things, but you also make me frown. You make me sad. You make me confused. You told me you care about me. I believe you....sometimes. I just think all the time how impossible it is that you could STILL care about me. Or start caring. We're miles apart. None of these things however will ever reach you. I can't open myself up to you like that. I already sound pathetic and weak. I don't you to make fun of me because I believed a lie either.

This will make sense someday. I just wish I knew what I was doing. Is there any hope? or is Impossible the word we're romancing? My guess is the second.

Wow I need to stop over analyzing. I need to stop thinking. I need to stop a lot of things. I'd be better then huh?

Who knows maybe it'll all be worth it. I don't know the future. I just hate not knowing SOMETHING.

blah. okay this is a disgusting blog. I already hate it. Excuse me my dears It's really irrelevant. I just needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.

"Listen to your heart. It never steers you wrong"