I know it does. Deep down with every fiber of my soul, I know it does. You threw my heart for a whirl when you said you loved me, now I'm terrified you're going to back track. With all of my being I know that we love each other. But with all of my being I doubt it...
I wish I knew how to be better at this. I wish I knew how to be exactly what you need. I can't be her though, and no matter what I will never have the same kind of hold that she has over you. It sounds ridiculous but I do love you. Saying it won't be enough though. Ugh. You listen to me when I know you'd rather be doing anything else. You so imperfect but perfect for me..as I hope I am for you. However...I'm probably just being silly. I fall too hard and I fell too soon, but there's nothing I can do about it now. These words are just words..they'll never reach your ears.
I really hate these nights. I sit up late and ramble on about something i think I understand. Guess what? I don't understand it. I'm such a loser, but I'm not. it's something to believe in. I can't go wrong with it. I just wish it was easier. "Nobody said it was easy...it's such a shame for us to part...Nobody said it was easy. it's such a shame for us to part" What do I even know anyway?
*sigh* I really wish I could explain to you. my words don't make sense though. they just bounce around in my mind and some read them on this blog, but they don't make sense. you can't know what I feel. why? because it's terrifying, you knowing frightens me like no other.
Ugh what am I even saying anymore?? I don't know.
I want you. I need you. Oh baby. Oh baby. haha.
I wish my life was like a retro-pop song. "I want you to want me, I need you to need me" ahah SIKE! I don't but still I wish I could have you here or I could be there. it would be nice.
Why do you always want me to come to you? why can't you come to me?
see my mind races... ;( I wish you were here tonight. I don't want to deal at the moment.
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