This is not about love.

This won't be interesting. So don't read it.
No...Not one bit. Why? because I'm quite tired of it. I just sound ridiculous and crazy and like a 10 year old girl stuck reading fairytales. This is life though. I'm 17. No fairytale is real. Sorry to burst anyones bubbles..but uhmm it's not. Sure, things can happen in life that may seem like it. Sometimes things work out like one too..but the chances are so slim it's ridiculous. SO with that... Don't put so much stock into one thing. Believe me..when you have love and it's real and true and woo...then hey great. Good for you. Hold onto that. It comes once in a blue moon.
Don't however spend every night wishing on a star because you'll run out of stars before the wish comes true. Why do I sound so jaded and bitchy? Gosh I really hate it BUT I've got to be this way. Otherwise I think too much...and it starts to hurt. So I'm gonna stop for a bit... Everyone needs time and space so okay, lets have that. I get it trust me,I do..I'd do the same thing most likely.
I'm just not thinking about it anymore. I can't. Negative creeps in and I don't need that. I have so much going on right now. Good things, I can't afford anything that'll keep that from happening. Fall away and we'll find each other sometime when we're ready. Stop reading now please. Like honestly. this is just a bunch of nonsense...and well everything I say is... however...

"If you wanna know, here it goes
gonna tell you this.
A part of me that shows,
If we're close gonna let you see everything
BUT remember that YOU asked for it.

I'm tryna do my best to impress
But it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest
but you wanna hear the things in my Heart and my Brain
Well you asked for it..
For your perusin'
At times confusin'
Slightly amusin'
Introducing me"

It's the best way I can put it. You can grow tired of me all you want. But please remember you wanted to know about me. You want to know my thoughts good or bad or whatever. So here.
If yo don't like them..well then you should have stopped when I said.

I'm not mad...or yelling... or anything really. I just have things to put down.. and I'll never say them directly. And I used to think you'd never hear them so I'd just blurb them here. However you read this damn thing...I don't feel a need to stop what this blog was all about so.. fine my thoughts go here. Take with it what you will.

I'm frustrated and confused. I love you. I do. but sometimes I wonder if that's enough. Don't answer that. Don't even let me know you've read this.

I wrote a new song. Some of it is truth and inspired by you. Not all of it however.

I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. I don't like feeling this way. That's why I'm tapping out right now. Just for a moment. Everything has gotten too big for me. Sooo...I hide. that's what I do. Introudcing Me. I get better. I promise I do. But if you want the good and the bad...here's the bad. blegh. Glad that's done with. I'm sorry. Hopefully you didn't make it this far.