Rihanna - Fading (Away) Lyrics

Can't you see that you're fading away?

Ohwell.

Plain White T's - Hate (I Really Don't LIke You)

yayayay Plain White T's kick.

Whatever.

I can see it now.

You're so awesome. Not. Too bad I know you don't care. But I honestly can't feel sad right now. If you're truly happier without me around. Alright. I can let you go. Thing is we were friends first before anything. You didn't even say Merry Christmas. Adam HATES me and he still took the time to do it. So yeah, you're so awesome.

Ohwell. Take your time. The New Year's coming though. Hopefully you'll decide you'd like to be in it with me. Ah well.

Ohhai how are you?

Ohhai guys [:
I realized this blog started to defeat it's purpose. It kinda turned into how much I loved someone. Totally not what this is about. At all. SOOO I'm gonna give a little update [:

You all know that I moved out to Los Angeles, California. It's been so much fun. I've met so many wonderful people, that I am so thankful to have in my life. No high school life is complete without drama, which I've found my fair share of, but it just means it's time to grow up. Start making a dult decisions. It's terrifying, but everyone has to do it sometime. I've just chosen to do it now.

I started applying to colleges. Talk about stressful and nervewracking! Not only do I have my applications, but I have to audition for each of my programs too! Oy Vey! BUT The list of schools I am applying to are:

1. New York University- Tisch School of The Arts
2. University of California Los Angeles
3. University of Southern California
4. Columbia College-Chicago
5. Carnegie Mellon
6. PACE
7. Juilliard
8. CSU-Fullerton
9. Okalhoma City University
10. University of Santa Barbra
11. Rutgers University
12. Pointe Park
13. Emerson
14. Roosevelt
15. CAL ARTS
16. Boston University
17. University of The Arts
18. Chapman
19. DePaul

..... Yes I know I have 19 schools!! AH! hahah.... But so worth it. I just want to get into a good school with a really good acting department. I KNOW I'll get in. Right now my number one school is NYU.. which is funny since I JUST moved to California...but there's just something about New York. PLUS It's on the East Coast. I kinda miss it over there. And after I graduate, I know I'll be back.

I'm on Winter Break right now, and I couldn't be happier. I got to go home for 2 weeks and it's just the greatest feeling ever. I missed everyone here. AND I'm not talking to Adam or Garrett, so it's kinda nice to be able to step back and think about things. OR not think about things. I have free range to do whatever I want. I think it'll be good for everyone. ANd well, really whatever happens, happens. It's life. I know this. See? Adult Decision [:

My family and friends are the best too! My baby cousins are THE MOST beautiful babies I have ever seen. I've just really missed everyone. My FRIENDS also kick ass because they help with the whole "not thinking while on break" thing. I seriously kinda don't want to go back. BUT I know I'd start missing L.A. about as much as I was missing Cincinnati.

A lot of blasts from my past are coming up too..it's crazy. My first boyfriend called me and he wants to have dinner. It's the craziest thing, but you know? I just might do it. It's been 4 years since we've beena ble to actually sit down and talk. It'd be cool to see what he's up to. He's a Junior in college, so yeah, I'm sure he has some crazy stories to tell.

I'll end this here with saying.... I cannot wait for christmas. I'm hoping for a miracle. I'm not exactly sure what for, I just know that I want one. I feel it. Especially last night on the Winter Solstice. It was paired with a Lunar Eclipse so there was so much "Magic" in the air. I wished for a sign. A sign for what direction to go in. I know what it's about... I just hope the answer comes.


THEN comes the New Year. 2011! I will graduate June 20th... but with a New Year, comes a New Me. I have so many things planned for this next year, and so many improvements on myself I plan to make. I'm ending 2010 and letting all this nonsense fall away. I'm starting my New Year with the best game plan ever. If people don't make it into my New Year with me..Well..?.that's not my fault. Take me or Leave me basically. Either way Imma do me. I will continue to love and believe in it, as well as other things. BUT I'm just not going to lay down and take shit from people.
Honesty is going to play a huge part this year. All I ask for from people is to be straight up.

I'll end my update here and probably do another after christmas....

I wish all of you a VERY Happy Holidays. I hope you get everything you wished/hoped for and more. ALSO Have a Safe Fantastic Fun NEW YEARS!!

I love you. I'll be seeing you. [:

*Remember*
" Some things fall apart, so that better things can fall together" [:

Amy

Rihanna - Only Girl (In The World)

Let's forget about the world
Cause it's only me and you tonight <3

Marianas Trench - Beside You

I love my wifey hhaha she is all I need [:

Relient K - The Best Thing - Acoustic

Beautiful. My goodness I'm in love with this boy ahaa.

"Cause when you looked into my eyes
And dared to stare right back
You should have said
"Nice to meet you, I'm your other half" Love love.

RELIENT K I So Hate Consequences Acoustic - Live At Studio A

"I had no idea where my head was at, but if my heart says I'm sorry can we leave it at that? Cause I just want for all of this to end" Goodness. haha. On point.

blink 182 going away to college lyrics

"Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But I'd go through hell for you and

I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me" Love love this song [:

Noted.

Sara Bareilles - Red

How you love is who you are.

Yes please

Dear Santa,




Love,
Me [:

The Fray - Look After You

If someone was to sing maybe just atleast the chorus or play it and say “yeah I think of you” I would probably cry and fall so in love. <3

Michael Buble Moondance HD

On my list of things to do before I die

Dance to this song under the stars and moon [:

Coldplay - Christmas Lights

Love.

I am such a loser....

I kinda, just sometime in life, want to be looked at by your eyes and have them say "You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, and the only girl I could ever want in the whole world. Forever".... yeah, I need to quit reading Nicholas Sparks haha


*** And I don't have a specific 'YOU' in mind, just in general. Just so I don't make things awkward...

All I want

Sometimes I find it okay to let fantasy get the best of me.

Hmmm....

I feel a little bad. Like I've been blaming you for something that's not your fault, or just I dunno. Like I've been distant and kind of a bitch. So. I'm sorry.

It all seems a bit

Pointless.

No words are coming now,

Trapped behind closed lips.

I try to get them out, but

I just don't know how.



Air is stuck inside my,

caved in lungs, you,

Want to run and hide?

You're not the only one.




Take a breath and go under.

Count to a hundred and stay down.

Cause we're drowing now,

flailing limbs look for saftey somehow.



Flashing lights signal help,

But everyone's eyes are closed.

Blaring sirens signal help,

But everyone's ears are closed.




Oh don't hear me calling?

Guess the water tunes me out.

Where are you when I need you to listen?

The flares have gone around me,You're nowhere to be seen.



Have you fallen under to the deep?

Try to search for you hand,But the cold has made me weak.

Unclasp, let me go, but it's no heroic feat.

Jack and Rose did better than we.






Take a breath and go under.

Count to a hundred and stay down.

Cause we're drowing now,

flailing limbs look for saftey somehow.



Flashing lights signal help,

But everyone's eyes are closed.

Blaring sirens signal help,

But everyone's ears are closed.



So I'll slip down beside you,

No one will ever know.

Because my words get lost in translation.

Blame it on my lack of communication.



Silence is all I can hear now.

Hell, I don't really mind.

You were always my favorite sound.

Better than words that are unkind.








Take a breath and go under.

Count to a hundred and stay down.

Cause we're drowing now,

flailing limbs look for saftey somehow.



Flashing lights signal help,

But everyone's eyes are closed.

Blaring sirens signal help,

But everyone's ears are closed.

Take a breath and go under
Count to a hundred and stay down,

Cause we're drowning now.