coldplay - til kingdom come (acoustic session)

For you I'd wait til kingdom come.

I freakin' love coldplay.

The Script - You Won't Feel a Thing with Lyrics

I'd take it for you [:

'Waiting For Forever' Trailer

Valentines day plans:

1.Buy chocolate and tissues
2.Go buy my Iphone (VDAY Gift to myself)
3.Go see this movie,and cry. alot. because movie love is always better than real life [:
4.Go home. Most likely cuddle up in bed with Hobbes.
5.Watch Harry Potter.
6.Cry some more just because.
7.Find Happiness.
8.Go to sleep.

Ohhboy.

*Sidenote: you boy who reads this..ignore this post. I'm only writing to him here because if I put it anywhere else he'll see it*


I've just gotta release thoughts where I know it's safe.

Adam. hifsdhohegvshrigh. Stop being angry and grrr with me. Come now. It's been about 3 months since everything blew up... I'm sorry. For everything. You were right. I was wrong. I was right. YOU were wrong. I can't stand not talking to you. Tactfully avoiding you in the hallways at school, eye contact is like freakin WWIII!!
NOW..you have to be my fiance in our senior show. We have to be in love. We have to kiss. We have to like each other..but WE HAVE TO BE IN LOVE! We're good actors..but we're not that good when there's still bad energy between us. You know that we care about each other. I adore the crap out of some of you. Other yous are mean and I don't particularly like those...but I deal with them.

So now you want me to be the one to stand up and fight, or take the first step at fixing things. for once. okay. yeah. I can do that. I will do that. I just need to know you'll LISTEN to me. and not be all grrr anger/sadness/hate. We've come so far past that. You have to know that. Believe me. Please? Thank you. I can't stand the fact you're not there anymore. You always listened to me about things, when I know it was the last thing you wanted to be doing. I miss the comfort/support/understanding when I completely broke down in your car. You were there through it all. and now when I need you most you're gone. Both of you are. which is a bit funny, considering he's the reason you went away in the first place BUT... yeah.

Let's just work this out. Now.

YES. LOVE. [:

formspring.me

Lessdothis [: http://formspring.me/childhoodreamer

Dear Family

I miss you. and I love you.

Rant

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Sometimes I just need to scream.

Why don't people understand I can't fight for something that doesn't want to fought for?

The Script - Nothing with Lyrics

The Script - This is Love with Lyrics

Love the script and this song

Dear Life

WAY TO FUCKIN' FALL APART!!!
I am so proud of you. Seriously. I am giving you a standing ovation. I couldn't be happier now that you've allowed me to hit rock bottom. Cool. This is great. I'll be okay. Maybe.

I just need somebody to come and take me away for a little bit..and possibly hold me until all my tears are gone.

Please? If you don't mind? I'd be ever so greatful.

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

This one too. It just came on my Ipod. Thought of you. Everything will be okay, when it's time for things to be okay.

City and Colour - Faithless

Love. this. song.

Take Me Along - Miley Cyrus + Lyrics

ew. it's Miley Cyrus. I know. But I cannot believe I actually relate. wow.

dtawyuwehogtjwrg

I just don't know what to do or where to go anymore. Lack of communication is driving everything out of whack. Then people read into things and starr formulating their own ideas. I'm only doing what I think you want me to do. gurwgwiothiot. merrr.

Funny Story hahaha

So this kid Corey from home thinks that he and I are destined to be together, but since we're far away we can't be right now. He recently saw the movie "When Harry Met Sally" and figured we're gonna be just like that. So then he asks me If I was "Romantically Involved" with anyone because if I was that would just kinda throw off everything, but he wouldn't give up because he truly thinks I am the love of his life... This all just makes me laugh because

1. When Harry Met Sally is JUST a movie.

2. I'm not as amazing as he thinks I am.

3. We're NOT gonna end up like Harry and Sally hahaa


But what makes me happy and kinda laugh in relief over how ridiculous everything has become... I love that I can honestly and truly say.. No. No I am NOT romantically involved with anyone. There are no strings attached, meaning no one to hold me back. I couldn't honestly say that before. But hey whatever. You guys made the decision for me, so thanks [:

updateupdateupdate!!

SOOOOO Hello lovely people that I adore so much. Here's a quick update. I had my first t wo COLLEGE auditions this weekend! CalArts and UCLA (both in California) and well too be honest, I'm not exactly sure how I feel about them haha. I have PLENTY more coming soon, which excite me because I will be going to New York at the end of February to tour some campus's and to audition for a few schools!!

I love New York VERYVERYVERYVERY much. SO fingers crossed.


To those of you who have been here for me and continue to be here for me through this journey, especially when I needed/need y'all the most. THANK YOU!! I seriously wish I could hug you all. It really means the world to have your love and support.


Stay tuned for more :D

Ames

Dear Self

It doesn't have to be this way.

Love, Me.

Truth

Life is like an hourglass, eventually everything hits the bottom; and all you have to do is wait until someone comes along and turns it around.



And I don't mind waiting because I know they're going to be the best fucking thing to ever happen to me.

Nick Jonas - Stay - Detroit, January 16th

Oh.my. I am so so so very much in love [: Beautiful song. Beautiful Boy. Yeeeeaaahhh.

Happy [:

I'm super stoked because it's really cold here in Cali WHICH MEANS I can wear baggy/long sweatshirts to bed...I'm super happy because I have a sweatshirt from pretty much all of my guy friends and I like to sleep in them because they always smell so nice and it's also so comforting to me (:

So tonight I'm wearing my newest sweater from Aaron. I'm really surprised he remembered to bring it because I asked him for it like right before break...BUT he remembered and it still smells like him...so I'm happy.

It's been a pretty awesome day. A lot of realizations. and now sweater/cuddle with Peeta, Hobbes and Rupert time. Ohboyohboyohboyohboy!!!

... I need to start my 2011 boy sweatshirt collection haha. hmm... I'll compile me list :D haahah

I'm awesome. Trust me. I know. haha.

Broken

Mhm mhm mhm.

And you know what? Whatever it is..we'll get over it and back on track. I wish that you could tell me what was wrong..I understand though. I care about you. That will never change. and I know...somewhere...deep down...you still care about me too. If I believed otherwise..I probably wouldn't still be here. You'd never have to hear from me again.

Darren Criss - "I Still Think (LIVE)"

I've got reason to believe
In the power of you and me
To break this spell

<3 this song.

I adore this song.

He bends his breath around my name
And I am humbled I feel small and plain.
But his arms are angels by his side.
You need not ask if they're open, just how wide.

His lips are day, and his skin is night.
Oooh, and with our love we conjure up the twilight.
His fingers are music to my soul.
And I feel his song play everywhere I go.

CHORUS
My love, my love is on his way
Can't wait to see the day I thankfully lay me down
My love my love is on his way
I'm waiting patiently, but if you see me now
My love, please hurry

He loves with rhythm, and paints with flame
He comes in pieces with no name
I won't need answers I'll just know
Cause I've read the sonnets about his soul

He can be ordinary in the best ways
And still dance like a poet through every word he says.

CHORUS
My love, my love is on his way
Can't wait to see the day I thankfully lay me down
My love my love is on his way
I'm waiting patiently, but if you see me now
My love, please hurry

All that I never knew can you see me now
All that I never said, can you see me now

He makes me crazy, he makes me cruel.
Oh, but I pray he makes me anything but a fool

Yes

You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy. Even if you're not part of their happiness.

So yeah, even if you never did. I always will. I love you enough for you to be happy.

and this isn't a "guilt trip" this is just me giving you want you want. So yup.

The Script - Breakeven (Falling To Pieces)

How Odd.

Nothing's perfect. Even something that seemed so great as us. Even though there really wasn't ever an "us"

Things take time.
Things happen.

I can't be upset, because I know if it's supposed to happen. We'll find our way back to eachother. Simple as that,

The fan girl inside of me died, and I'm positive I am ready for the boy that pete just described to come into my life. Okay Thanks [:

Darren Criss - Not Alone

It don't matter what'll come to be
Our love is all we need,
To make it through :D

Love this song

PARAMORE-ANOTHER DAY+LYRICS

Pretty much in love with this song. Story of life? yeah I think so haha

Paramore - All I wanted studio version

Love.

yeah

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

Thoughts

Okay.. So I have a big problem with those stupid "Housewives of ___" whereever the fuck they're from.

Do we not remember the woman's rights struggle that was fought so hard for? Woman wanted equality and all these abilities.

No we have these fucktard women who lose all respect and dignity for themselves for 15 mintues of fame by allowing their lives to be documented on a stupid reality show. The thing is They're not even TRUE housewives. They don't do shit but gossip and talk. Ew.


I'll provide for my family and do things around the house and cook like a WIFE would..but fuck the not working and what not. Unlike some girls out there I like the fact that I have all of these rights now. It could have been so much worse.


Blah. Sorry for this rant. It just seriously bothers me.

To be honest...

What is going on? You're creating things that I've never even thought. You don't even talk to me anymore. Not communicating. Didn't you agree that not communicating never gets you anywhere? Well okay, then I'll just write it here. I don't want to add anymore trouble to you, this way you can stop reading if you want and never have to know.

I'm not mad or upset with you. I don't think any less of you or anything. I just think you don't want to be around anymore...so I started telling myself that. If I act like it doesn't bother me and I act like I'm okay..then I can fool everyone else and eventually become okay. I just don't have a clue.

You have shit you got to figure out, so okay. I stepped back to give you the space and time you need. Don't assume that means I don't think you're good enough for me. If you think I'm the type of person to think that about you..after everything..then you really don't know me..like at all.

Don't be mad at me for something I didn't do.
and Don't assume everything I write on here has to do with you.

If to you have a question,comment, thought whatever about anything...all you have to do is step up and talk to me about it. That's the only way things progress. If you want to stay in this moment thinking I hate you or something....fine go ahead, but that's on you. Never in a million years would I. But okay.

Pink - Fuckin' Perfect with lyrics

Yes. Pretty Much.

City and Colour - The Girl (Music Video)

I will forever and ever love this song....things that come from the heart are the best.


and P.S. if you even still read this thing, this wasn't posted for your benefit. So don't worry.(:

Kate Nash - Birds

This makes me happy right now [:

I'll be there

Kate Nash - Nicest Thing (Animation)

Cause you're the nicest thing.

Fuck Them, Love Us.

We'll be winners [:

I'm Sorry

Parachute - Under Control

"one of these days, i'm gonna find myself a way. i'll find the courage and i'll find the grace, and i'm gonna know just what to say. because i've kept my heart under control, but lately all this time has taken its toll. oh, so darling, please forgive me, i want you and you'll just have to know"

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

Love. Love. Love

2011

MAKE A WISH!!!! And make it a good one this year guys.

Holy Shit! I am so so so happy it is now time for 2011. I was growing super tired of 2010. I graduate in 5 months or so and...just fuck yeah. It's time.

I've grown a lot through this past year. Learned a lot about myself and I feel pretty solid coming into this new year. People let their real selves show and honestly I'm not too surprised. But I'm not letting shit phase me. If they're gone for good. Alright so be it.

I know who I am. I know what I want. It's really up to everyone to hop on this train. I'm not really waiting around anymore.

I'll still make mistakes.
I'll still learn lessons.
I'll still fall IN and OUT of love.
I'll still do all of the same things I did before.

BUT I will do it confidently.

Challenge me 2011. I dare you.

Live.Love.Laugh.

Amy