Hope.

My Grandparents are two of the sweetest people ever in the whol wide world. Today marks their 38th year od being married and they are still IN love. They don't say "I love you" because it's routine and they think they have to, they do it because it's what they honestly still love one another. They are so wonderful and I couldn't think of two better people to look up to when it comes to true love. I hope to someday have a tenth of what they have.

Honest Moment?

I am terrified right now. For the state of the world. For the families in Detroit who have to watch their home become non-existent simply because the city is bankrupt. For the homeless trying to get by that are sleeping just down the street.

THEN there are the mass genocides/Gorilla Warfare in Uganda and right this very second in Libya. You don't gain power by killing hundreds of people during prayer and giving the okay to rape women and children. The world disgusts me.

I am terrified for the future of my unborn child. I don't even think I WANT to have children now. How will I be able to protect them?

I am honestly terrified.


John, we failed you. and for that I am sorry. (see picture to understand)

Justin Nozuka - My Heart is Yours

I love this boy. He calms me down.

I feel like running.

I don't know, nor care where to. I just need out. I need away from all of this bullshit. I need a new start.

500 Days of Summer.

Is NOT a love story. It truly is a story about love.

Everytime I watch this movie it makes me think and puts a shit ton into perspective. You know we ask the question "What does it even mean..this..love?" and it's true. What DOES it even mean? then an answer "There is no such thing as love, it's a fantasy"

People say there is absolutely no reason to believe in it, because it never works out.

But I call BullShit on that. Love isn't Santa Claus. It's not something you believe in or not. And this isn't even coming from the Hopeless Romantic side of me. This is coming from the realistic just watched 500 Days of Summer side of me.

When things don't work out between two people, we spend a lot of time wondering and wishing and feeling like shit. But really..the only thing that happened between two people is...simply..life.

Life happened. People change and grow apart. You cannot control that no matter how much you wish you did.

So even if you had 500 Days of your own "Summer"
keep in mind there always was, always is, and always will be a Day One.

and then eventually.... someone will walk into your life, and you'll understand why it never worked out with anyone else.


You will travel down SO MANY different paths, and meet so many people. You will fall in and out, in and out, in and out of love.

But at the end of the day..you'll understand it was all worth it..because the one you were always supposed to be with, will the one you crawl into bed next to every night, and say hello to every morning.

Whether that person is from your past, your present or your future.
You can't know what's in store.
So just live and love.

Skin & Bones

These are the lyrics to the song I just posted...
Lyrics are the most important ever.

CHARLENE:
darling, why am I not surprised it rained today?
doesn’t it seem my broken heart just tends to ride the wind
but what will break the weight that’s held up by a string?

you don’t reminisce like me 'bout how it was
romanticizing these redundant thoughts
I’m never free
so I wait for your parade to come rain down on me

I’m running around hoping to find
somebody like the boy that I left behind
who loved all of me
my fingernails and scatterbrain and crooked teeth

DARREN:
dreams don’t carry quite the weight they used to have
two kids looking through rosy colored glass
like fools in love
the summer drugged our senses, filled our eyes with stars

CHARLENE:
but now we say goodnight confined to separate sides
and you’ll never compromise your current life to look behind
you never planned to love me for this long a time

I’m running around hoping to find
somebody like my one, though in time I’m sure
I’ll grow to know
another’s eyes, another’s laugh and skin and bones

but til then, I’ll keep on wanting you who I can’t have
cuz with the distance came this awful dam
and being in in love
with someone I can’t feel or hold or see or touch

I’m running around hoping to find 
somebody like my one, though in time I’m sure
I’ll grow to know
another’s eyes, another’s laugh and skin and bones

Charlene Kaye ft. Darren Criss - Skin and Bones (Official Music Video!)

umm...yes. PLUS Darren Criss. mmmm. Yummy.

I want you to be the spark that sets my world into motion.

But tell me..are you brave enough? [:

Follow your heart always.

Let The Flames Begin...

"Somewhere weakness is our strength,
And I'll die searching for it,
I can't let myself forget...
Such selfishness.

My pain and all the trouble caused
No matter how long,
I believe that there's hope,
Buried beneath it all and
Hiding beneath it all and
Growing beneath it all"

I don't know who I am anymore...because who I was would've never broken your heart. :/

What If - Safety Suit

I heard this, and I thought of you. I'm not entirely sure why.

Anywhere But Here- SafetySuit (with lyrics)

Um. New favorite Band. New Favorite Song. Listen to it!!

Parachute - The Mess I Made

"Oh my head's to blame,
For all my hearts mistakes"

Parachute - Something To Believe In

Music.

Busted [:

So this makes me laugh... I know you told me you still read this...and yeah you do.. haha. I found the area that lets me check the Stats...and up in canadia land, there's always a darker spot in the north-east side..right about where you are. hahaha.

okay. the end. thanks for reading. hope my life entertains ahah

You Make Me High - Jason Mraz

Someone come dance with me to this? okeythanks.

Jason Mraz - Sleeping to Dream (with lyrics)

Mraz kick. haha. Enjoy [:

Hey love - Jason Mraz

The Rainbow Connection - Jason Mraz and Paul Williams

I don't care for who I've become.

Change. I need change.

All I really want is just a hand to hold, and someone to keep me safe at night.

Valentine - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

Let your heart win today [:

Happy Valentines Day [:

Reflex Reaction.

I'm going to take a moment and talk about you. I haven't really done this in awhile, but I'll do it now.

Last Valentines Day all you said was I miss you. That's all you needed to say. Those three words meant the world.

This Valentines Day, though we don't talk, you still sent a message. Right at midnight. Telling me you miss me. The fact that I still cross your mind makes this easier. But most importantly you apologized. Don't apologize about not knowing what to do about yourself. I've told you this. But you apologized for what it's done to me, and that means a lot. I'm not upset, it just kinda hurt that you left so suddently.
But, I get it. The Garrett Nelson I met is somewhere inside of you, he's just feeling a little lost. As I've said many times, I still believe in you. I know you'll figure all of this out. Never hesitate to talk to me about anything either. I always have been and always will be a friend to you, if nothing else.

You've got this. Stay Gold. [:

Try Harder. Resist Less.

This.

Boy with guitar. love. and oh yeah..there's the song too [:

STOP!

People. I get it. I fucked up. Please stop driving the knife through my heart. kthxbye.

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