Becoming Memories

That's my senior play and it is so beautiful. I cry about 5 times throughout the show. It's just amazing to think what time does to people individually and in their relationships. What drives man to be so possessive? What causes a man to "love everyone in the whole world" but the one person who deserves his love the most? How can a man be so broken that he would agree to marry his late wifes sister, knowing full well he won't ever truly love her? How can a woman feel so neglected that she prays to God he will simply lust after her? What causes a woman to devout her life completely to God and ministering. What drives a man to promise that he'll return? A woman to defy her parents and at least agree to take a big enough risk that could cost her her life?

As strange as it seems all of these things occur because each person has so much love for their significant other that COULD be destructive, like what is shown in most of these stories. OR it can be one of the strongest ties a person can have with someone else, something that keeps growing and gets better with age. Like an old wine. That just so happens to be my family...Ida and Henry are two of the most beautiful people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing..and well simply becoming. Ida's ability to just give and love so freely and openly..the trust she has in the fact that Hemry will come back is breathtaking. The same goes for Henry...He doesn't have to stay and risk all thy he does for her, he didn't have tontrust that shed wait for him,he didn't even have to come back. Yet he did. Something about that just resonates within me so deeply. To love someone unconditionally. Ida's a person I could only hope to grow to be. We have the ability to love freely and give freely in common, in fact that's maybe where I go wrong sometimes.

I do love for a brief moment I'm able to be that kind of person. The kind deserving of love. The kind that has found someone worthy of her love. The kind that says no matter what we're working this out. We're getting through whatever comes our way because I love you. I love us.
"Maybe that's a case of my wishful thinking" it's gonna happen. :) but honestly Ida has changed me. Everytime I learn something about her, I learn something about myself. I couldn't be happier. I really am becoming better. All of this will become a memory, but it will never be one that I want to throw away.

And honestly as hard as it is... I'm really happy with who is playing Henry. At least we get to pretend. That's just the business we're in anyways :) who knows what's to come?

Anyways, it's a beautiful story. All of it. I'm really happy.