OH! But a realization...(aka rant, safe place secrets)

SPEAKING of my ex and apparent things I don't remember saying....

I think I've finally come to terms with this whole ordeal.

I can sit here and think about us and not feel mad or upset or any of that...well..sometimes it's hard, but more often than not now a days I've been okay.

because truth is? No matter what people try and tell me about "Oh, if you want him you need to fight for him, you can still be together" blah blah blah.... Fact of the matter is, No. If he wanted me to do anything along those lines he would step up and tell me.

What am I supposed to be waiting for if he's made up his mind? Am I right? Yes.
Look guys, if he wanted to be with me, he would be.

He knows how I feel and what I wish to be, but you know he's scared (quite frankly I am too) and he just finds it best to not step in that direction again.

For once..? I can honestly say that's okay.

I'm not going to fight for someone who is going to fight against me every step of the way.

So...he can go his way and I will go mine. The universe puts us in odd situations so from now on I'll just leave it up to that. I'll do what I have to, but I won't do anymore or any less.