That all of this is easier. And apparently that's all on me. But that's not fair. I can't do it alone. I can't do it when I can't even look him in the eyes long enough to manage even a hello. Now I mean, it's not like I could look in his eyes when things were fine either, something about someone being able to see my soul freaks me out. I feel to exposed. NOT to mention.. He IS scary. Good side to him or not, he does too good of a job at hiding it.
Guys, can we just agree that I should just follow the rules and do what he wants me to do? I know I should think about myself here too, but honestly..it's totally fine. I can put his wants and needs first this time too.
Blergh. I just wish. Nothing. I can't even wish right now.
Yes, this is totally dramatic and stupid. Leave me alone. I'm allowed to have a thought process.
It's a place where I share my thoughts. Nothing is held back. I live to love and love to live. Don't be surprised.
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